I am creative. I say again, I am creative. I like to create stuff, writings, scrapbooks, sewing, pictures, just about anything artistic. I also like them to be perfect. So by default, I procrastinate. I don’t want to waste my time creating garbage. Here is where the lightbulb comes in:
It is ok to create garbage. It is ok to create mediocre material. It is ok to do my best and not have it come out perfectly. The part I am missing is the creative part. I started this blog as a niche site. Somewhere where I could talk about my little life. So I have been fighting it. I want to make my site a perfect site for littles. Well what does the perfect site look like? Yea, let me know if you figure it out too.
This is my site, to use for me however I want. Sometimes I will talk about little stuff, other times, I will talk about grown up stuff. It is the day in the life of a little. Me. I do not regress, I do not role play, it is who I am every single day. When I try to be grown up and act like I do not have flaws, well that is where I am missing the point. No one is perfect, no one has the perfect life, and no one can be me and love my life. As imperfect as it may be…..
So I think I have had similar epiphanies like this before, and I have thought I figured out who I am. But really, I figure it out, only to twist it around to be the “perfect” vision I have in my head. So buckle up, I am gonna try something…..
I plan to be me, and give the day in the life of my little. Like a diary, only published for all to see. No attacking, no mean stuff. If you don’t like me, stop coming to my house. That is not to mean I won’t take constructive criticism, that is perfectly ok. Just don’t tell me I am an idiot and I need to grow up cuz duh, I already know I need to grow up, I just don’t wanna. 😛